These past few weeks have been a whirlwind. Too busy not to post, not per se time-wise, but mostly due to a lack of headspace. It's a toss up of emotions, and yet we barely have time to process it all as we run from appointment to appointment, keeping track of meds, clearing insurance, and … Continue reading Chanukah Reflections
Another cycle ends, and here we are again. It's hard when all that's supposed to signify renewal becomes a searingly painful reminder of how stuck you are. It isn't easy to approach the process with the joy it rightfully deserves when something inside you cries haven't I done this enough? I think of the excitement … Continue reading Never Ending.
I ask Him for children because I want to love But instead - He teaches me how He wants to be loved, with all my heart, no matter when. I ask Him for children because I want give But instead - He teaches me to give to His children, the art of understanding those … Continue reading Wishlist
Recently we were at cousins for Shabbos, when their little son stopped my husband after davening and said "Why do Meir and Avi (his brothers who both got married after us) have kids and you don't? It's not fair! I think you should get a turn already..." Thankfully, this kid is just too cute - … Continue reading It’s Fair, But…
I found this comic a while back, in When Do the Good Things Start? by Rabbi Abraham J. Twerski. It was an instant favourite, and I've been thinking of it ever since. It's a game we all play. Stop anyone, anyplace, and they can probably give you three reasons why their life is worse than the … Continue reading There’s a World Outside My Little World
See that sweet neshama’le? It twinkles in the sky, And though it’s far away from me, I know that it is mine. I’m told I’m not the first one, Mother of yet unborn, Who looked upon the darkest night, And hoped, yet gently torn... While tonight I stand here empty, Deep down I feel it … Continue reading Starlight
The train pulls in; Married Life. We hop aboard, waving smilingly at our friends left standing at the station. We settle in, their blessings ringing in our ears. "Have a safe trip! Hope to see you soon..." The train pulls away. Some minor bumps and then we're off, enjoying the ride. Slowly, a steady stream … Continue reading The Waiting Train
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