It's been almost half a year now since our lives have turned over, a full 360 degrees. It's hard to believe how much has changed, how quickly things have passed - and here we are, in a place far beyond we could have ever dreamed. We weren't expecting a positive, not in any way. And … Continue reading Mah Ashiv

With the amount of drafts accumulating on my computer, and not a finished post in site (mind the pun) you'd think I'm competing for the Drue Heinz Literature prize. (not so.) Or just that I'm really busy (more likely.) More and more, I feel as though our IF is moving up a notch, which is … Continue reading Malky’s Inspiration

I'm fortunate to live in a rather close knit community. We're all friendly, we look out for each other, we send each other meals when "we" have babies....(sorry, couldn't resist that!) Best of all, we women get together from time to time for learning groups. I generally tend to avoid these shebangs, not because I … Continue reading Living with Purpose

To My Sister in Waiting, You know who you are, my unsung hero. From the outside, people admire your strength, and curiously wonder about the struggles you face. They don't understand you, don't understand the depth of you challenge. They try, as they cluck sympathetically and offer enlightening bits of unfiltered wisdom. Surely, if you … Continue reading Unsung Heroes

There's been a lot swirling around my head, as we recoup, rethink, and try to fortify ourselves for what's up ahead. Second opinions, third opinions, more testing, different meds, adjusted dosage, change of protocol... hang on, can we just breathe? Sometimes it feels like we're just treading water, trying to make sense of things while … Continue reading So There!

It's a conversation I find myself having often, and it makes me laugh. Someone will say, "aren't you lucky, you and your husband have time to bond" or "having children right away is no picnic, be grateful you have time together" or even "it's so nice that you can enjoy each other, if you'd be … Continue reading Myth Busting

Honeysuckle scented breath, Baby powdered toes, Tiny fingers, rosebud lips, And eyes that twinkle so. The charm and joy that wash away, The pain, those tear-filled days, Snuggled warm, safe and pure, At last, mine - here to stay... Sweet dream of mine, I hold you close, Securely tucked within, I clutch you through the … Continue reading Dream a Dream…

Sometimes I look at this blog and I don't believe I wrote it. I'm me - who struggles, cries, and can get more down than the downest person out there. So when I read this, sometimes I'm like "hey, really?" In case you were wondering the same, this post is for you. It's about as … Continue reading Diffusion / Rant

With four minutes to the hour our mashgicha still hadn't arrived at the scene. Needless to say we were at our wits end. In the preceding moments, Sruli had placed numerous frantic calls to the mashgicha's agency but to no avail. Our efforts to reach our Rav proved futile as well - although when he … Continue reading Yes, No, Maybe So…